Reading Dirk Hayhurst on the plight of guys like Pillar/minor-leaguers/bubble-players makes me understand Pillar's spazz a bit more. I don't think they enjoy any of this. It's just incredibly frustrating and stressful for these guys. Constant stress about whether you will be a millionaire and retire or have to go get a real job eventually. Stupid decision, but containing all of it must be so hard.