Sorry dude, I guess I'm just propagating rape culture. f***, I'm a catholic kid from Newfoundland. Half the kids I grew up with were interfered with sexually, one way or another. They didn't go on to use it as a crutch. If someone f***s you up enough you either let it weigh you down or you grow up and settle your score. Whether thats a lawsuit, an asskicking or a convenient career as a correctional officer thats up to you. Their are far more satisfying and effective ways to vent. Writing a novel about it, thats about as soft as it gets.