It shouldn't be like that but it is. I know I'm supposed to be able to still enjoy the moment because of how unexpectedly great the season was but it's hard. Like you said, it's hard to watch the great moments of the playoffs now, knowing how it ends. Flying home to Portland last night from Toronto, I looked at my son and told him that if Toronto makes it to the World Series again, we are gonna open ourselves up to feeling this way again, but we are still gonna do it!! All I know is that things were set up so perfectly to celebrate with my kids and experience one of the most joyous occasions that we could possibly experience in our lives together, but it was just not meant to be. I'm glad we made the trip and it was time and money well spent, but the could haves and should haves are gonna haunt me for a while.