No one knows the reality of your experience because you're probably the most dishonest person on this board, love to be the center of attention and display very narcissistic traits on a regular basis.
For example, I find it hard to believe that you're so attractive that women flock to f*** you despite not being able to converse anywhere other than a quiet room, supposedly. That is assuming you're actually deaf which I'm still 50/50 on since your described experiences do not reflect anything close to the experiences of any deaf people I know (and I live with two, including one who became deaf via an accident).